With the approach Mother’s Day my mind has been thinking of so many things about Motherhood…my own Mother, the recent death of my Dad’s Mother, the fact that my Mom’s Mother may not live to see 2011…becoming a Mother myself to my most amazing little girl…and about another Mother. I wonder…I wish there were so many things I could tell and ask her. Was she married? Did her in-laws put pressure on her to give up their baby because she was a girl and they had no heir to care for them in their old age? Was she a second child? Did she have an older brother? Or sister? Or was she too young to care for a child? Who brought her to the gate of the orphanage? Did the person wait and watch in hiding to make sure she was found quickly? What happened? Why did she abandon my precious daughter? I wish there was a way to answer all these questions for my Sarah one day.
It is because of this woman’s sacrifice that such a precious little baby girl was brought into our family…from so far away, in such a different place chosen especially for our family by God. I wonder if she thinks about Sarah and wonders about her life…where she is, what kind of family she has, how much she is loved and treasured.
I wish I could tell her that Sarah lights up our home in a way only she can. I wish I could tell her that Sarah swims like a fish, wants to be an Olympic swimmer one day, and loves everything to do with the ocean. I wish I could tell her that Ariel is her favorite Princess. I wish I could tell her that Sarah’s the tallest girl in her preschool class, tallest kid for that matter. I wish I could tell her that Sarah is already reading stories to me at bedtime. I wish I could tell her how loving Sarah is, how caring she is…I wish I could tell her about when I have a headache or am hurt and Sarah prays for me. I wish I could tell her how she loves to ride her bike. I wish I could tell her that Sarah has lost 5 teeth already and has a 6th that’s a little wobbly. I wish I could tell her that Sarah loves to draw and color and that every person she draws ends up being a mermaid by the time the drawing’s done. I wish I could tell her how much she makes me laugh every day…how much fun she is to be around…but most of all I wish I could tell her how much I love the girl who began life in her womb and how thankful I am.